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Alright people I run into from ‘THE PAST’.

When people I haven’t seen in years, 2 or more. Say things like “you look nothing like yourself!” or “omg you look so different!”. I know I should probably be somewhat flattered because for the majority of my preteen and teenage years I was in a giant awkward phase. I’m not even saying that so you guys think I have character, it was just miserable at the time. Yet I find when people say this shit.. I am more so dumbfounded by how that is ‘supposed’ to be a compliment yet implies the fact that either.. shit was gotten WORSE or shit has gotten better.. all determined upon by tone of voice. What seems strange to me is this avoidance to use complimentary words such as; beautiful, pretty, handsome, great,etc. I see this a lot mostly in my own family where complimenting an others attributes or achievements is somehow down playing your own unfortunately. When someone tells me I don’t look like myself, it’s almost innately offensive. It makes me think “well what the fuck am I supposed to look like?” a 15yr old girl with acne and a ‘thing’ for mismatched clothing? I just remind the person that they haven’t seen me in 5+years and I haven’t been cryogenically frozen the entire time.